MY MIND SPEAKS..........

this is the first time i am using this blog as a let out off all my feelings, writing wat i fell i need to say. this is to u sue, its been so long sice we had a normal conversation. so long since we met person to person like we always usd to in school. everyday, at first i tried to tell myself that its ok she's not gone far i can always call her whenver i want to, shes on speed dial at all times. but today i realised how wrong i have been....she's drifted farther than i could have ever imagined. or perhaps i have drifted farther away from myself. gone into hibernation and then when i woke up after the metamorphosis i had changed so much i hardly recognised myself...its weird..like everything is right now....how fact and fiction fuse into one entity....how like love and hate are pretty much the same....i have changed too much to look at the world in the same perspective as i did earlier....its fine for ideologies and beliefs but what about relationships, what about long time freindships..i cant read ur mind like i once could....or perhaps u let me and now we are just too far apart to connect...watever the reason the effect is deppresingly fatal....we have drifted apart....had u been my girlfreind i could have so convieniently said "look i dont think things are working out lets break off amicably. hey we can still be freinds and all but i dont think this thing is going anywhere" but hell u r my confidante my counsello my elder sis and i cant do this, so lets do it the other way around. lets assume or rather pretend we are strangers on a journey and we happen to meet each other in a coffee shop (or wherever u want us to meet). let us unlearn everything we know about each other. coz i from my side have changed so much that u really really need to know me again from scratch. and i need to know u too. if we find each other likable once again its great else....i'll cherish the moments we had together in school right from day one in eight to somewhere in college where this infinite distance started creeping in. i should have posted this way earlier sue. i am really sorry, life's pretty screwed up down here. i wanted you to know how i feel and this is it. lets be strangers once again, i am hoping we like what we learn, coz what i was is not wat i am and wat i am is very much different from wat u assume me to be. so long stranger i wish u have a beautiful day.